saw meili's quote.
"children make you want to start life all over again"
sigh, how true.

i totally relish that kind of past.
where nothing seems too big to solve.
where black and white has a clear definition.
no grey zones...
its usual to see smiles.
its unusual to see a sad face.

the many things i went thr today made me see the ugly side of things.
its horrible. words cant explain how i felt at those moments.

i just realised i din smile right from the bottom of my heart today.